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Birds and Gothic

I have signed up for the RSPB bird identification survey, it’s meant to be done this weekend but yesterday I forgot and today the world outside seems devoid of birdlife except for one pigeon that’s sitting on the spinney.
We bought a bird feeder yesterday and hung it in our lilac bush in the front garden because the most comfortable place to watch birdlife from our house is the living room. Despite the berry bushes we have in the back garden, berberis, blackberry, hawthorn and holly. Thing is, the dining room is in my opinion the most dismal, cold and uncomfortable room in the house and it’s always dark!
We get all day sun in the living room and the front bedrooms, so cooking in the kitchen and being in the dining room is usually best avoided by me. Which is quite funny when you look at it from my past perspective – as a teenager I was nicknamed the vampire as I would literally shut myself away on a sunny day and dress in black! Now here I am nearly 35 and I am chasing the sun!
Talking of vampires, I am absolutely in love with Damon Salvatore’s eyes. If you don’t know who Damon Salvatore is, he is a vampire character from a television series called ‘The Vampire Diaries’, a program of which I have been trying to watch back to back since November.
Though I am no longer seriously gothic, I still have a passion for vampires. I love vampires, vampires are my life – I love reading about them, learning about the mythology, watching movies or programs with them in it – I love gothic art, especially by artists such as Anne Stokes and I buy anything I can that is gothic. I do not like skulls or skeletons though, or anything depicting eyeballs, unless of course it’s the lucky protective charm of the evil eye or the eye of Horus, because they protect you from evil.
Anyway, getting back to the birds – I suppose I will have to do this survey tomorrow, the birds don’t seem active. I’ve been sitting around since 1pm looking for them, it’s cloudy, dark, rainy, and misty, with signs of fog – I don’t think they’re interested in the rosehips and seeds in the front garden today. We have a lot of seeds in the garden, natural ones – like nigella and aquilegias, whether they eat those or not, I haven’t a clue, but we have some shop bought seeds for them in a feeder.

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New Category & A Stand!

I used to have several accounts on a website known as but I hadn’t been on that site for a long time, I wanted to go back to it this week and update it like I used to – I used to update the sites with general rubbish just to help me get things out of my brain, but also inform friends on my current mood and thoughts – particularly thoughts on current affairs and creatively playing with my own mind.

Alas, it seems no longer exists, so I feel I have to find some other way in sharing those random thought processes. 

I tried to open a new account today on a website I never been to before called Live Journal, but I personally don’t think it’s for me.  So I think I will update anything I want to from this site.

If anyone has a problem with what I know to be true, get over it.  I state only facts in this blog when talking about my past, I have no reason to lie about anything that has happened to me and I will no longer be forced to feel ashamed to tell the world what I deem to be true!

The last paragraph is aimed at various relatives and friends of the family, because some people are upset that I have been honest about my upbringing, to the extent they have called me a liar and have threatened to take me to court for defamation.  Well they can try, I have spoken to a friend of mine recently who is a lawyer and they said that if I had evidence through social services of what went on as a child, the case would be thrown out of court in my favour.

So therefore, I no longer have anything to fear, as my parents very nearly lost me to social services when I was 12.

I want to be able to talk about anything I want in this blog, but obviously the main subject of the blog is creative fantasy, poems, stories, reviews, this is why I have created another category called Brain Drain and Dribble, so you know that this is purely what’s going on in my mind right now – it will contain flashbacks, memories, rants about current affairs, anything… this is in an effort to keep my blog active during blocks of time where I am not posting creative stuff.

Sit back and enjoy, this category will be dramatic and touch on sensitive subjects at times.


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The winter is born

It brings death to the year

Some people cry

Others they cheer

But they all call out



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