I have been keeping very quiet about a certain little underground problem; I say it’s underground because it hasn’t actually directly been aimed at me exactly, only through hearsay.
I have the hearsay of online acquaintances that a certain vlogger has been doing her utmost to try and tarnish my reputation behind the scenes by friending anyone connected to me to get any details about me and to basically, lie about me in parts. These online acquaintances have warned me she is doing this because of jealousy – I don’t know why, because I have never had a book published whilst she has!
I am embarrassed that this is going on behind my back, because I dislike drama llamas and I don’t engage with gossip and things like that generally, unless it gets too out of hand and it is getting out of hand because I am actually becoming concerned of the reputation of the person doing this. They don’t realise it, but they are killing their reputation with their venomous behaviour and though they are being nasty about me, I am concerned for them!
Their YouTube is slowly experiencing a death, because they prefer the quickness of Tik Tok, but they are using Tik Tok wrong. In fact dangerously so, because they are spouting discrimination and hatefulness at every turn at a quick fire pace without realising of the consequences that this could have on their own personal lives.
Nobody wants to work with someone who is a poisonous, backstabbing, bully – to put it mildly. I know these are strong words, but I am saying it how people would see it, if they are watching what she is doing.
She doesn’t realise that this is not a reflection of how professional she claims to be in comparison to other people who seem to be less so – it’s a reflection of her as a person and so far she is not projecting a nice persona that endears people to her – basically shooting herself in the foot in the process, when she desires the opposite effect.
She is struggling to maintain her career as far as I can see, yet, she is doing everything that is counterproductive to try and reclaim it.
This is the danger of fast paced vlogging – people can do quick-fire posts about heated discussions, defame, delete, discriminate, delete, as and when they please and they think they can do this without observers, seeing!
An example of this would be, my son, after hearing the rumors about this person decided he will go and see who she is and what she is saying. He was horrified when she called me a C— and then deleted that comment twenty minutes later. Why she has singled me out in particular I have no idea.
I wouldn’t have posted this if it weren’t for one major thing – the personal attack on my mixed ancestry and suggesting it’s fake and that everything about me is fake. Also ageist comments; Personal attacks like this is discrimination – it’s illegal! Don’t claim to know things via presumptions when you don’t know someone, as it will come back to bite you some day! If this continues, I will be forced to take legal action.
But because I am a person who doesn’t like to engage in drama and I like to mind my own business and wish the world luck and love – I am not going to mention their name here… why? Because they’ve contacted enough people who know me, that the people who have been contacted by her, can already guess who the blazes I am on about.
There is only one mega bully online that is making herself famous by her vitriol of many people, not just me.
I do not like to react quickly to things like this and I have said before, that my blog posts are usually written in first draft only. But because I don’t want to take the bait, I have edited this post six times over the course of ten days!
No doubt she will shoot herself in the foot again by posting multiple tik tok videos screeching about it whilst also having a certain grace in not naming me directly too.
Why she has decided to single me out is beyond me as we have never engaged in a conversation and we are poles apart in the genres of which we write, she is mostly a sci-fi, thriller author, whereas I am mostly a fantasy, steampunk and horror writer.
Because I am concerned for her career and her reputation, I believe it is time for me to broadcast that what she is doing is not only ruining her own future with what she is doing, but she is also engaging in illegal activity whilst doing so. Ageism and all forms of discrimination is a crime and she can be taken to court for it, just thought she should know.
People, especially this day and age find all forms of hate grotesque and she is emulating so much venom with every post she is doing, that she is going into very dangerous territory on a personal level.
I fell into the trap of people pleasing because some things she was spreading about me was getting to me; I felt the need to try and prove everything I am doing all the time and I felt that my way of writing was wrong – but there is no right or wrong way to write.
I am not going to prove anything to anyone, because I don’t have the time and the energy to do so – whether they believe I am a writer or not, I don’t care, because I know I am one and I write profusely every day, even if I often forget to update what I am doing online to the world.
I have a son to take care of, a house, myself, my partner, my pets, my garden, generally having a life as well as reading and writing. Not sitting back like some young lonely sad creature who wants to bully the world because things aren’t going her way.
It is sad when some people feel that the only way to become famous is to become some kind of motor mouth of poison, of hatred, of shocks and taboo! It’s really sad that there are people out there who have no pride in themselves that they can do this.
I bring nothing but love to people, because this world is a harsh one. I love everybody, I wear my heart on my sleeve and I will fight for anybody who needs it; however, I am easily hurt and once I am hurt, I don’t forget, but I do tend to forgive eventually.
I have so much love to give, it’s a shame she didn’t want to try and contact me to make friends and that she chose this route to reach out to me.
People who know me offline have always said I am a very motherly person who would adopt the world if she could; this has been something that has been said to me, even back in high school – which is why I was once nicknamed “The mother raven” I was a goth, but I loved everyone and tried my best to help the world.
The writing community is a lovely one to be a part of, when things aren’t so vicious. It’s a shame there are people out there who wants to spread evil in the world and damage communities as well as personal confidences.
That is all I am going to say now. For me, this should end things, though I am sure in some way it may have fuelled the fire in her – but I am not responsible for how she chooses to react to the world and what I say.
However, I am responsible for my own words and actions and I take full responsibility of those words and actions and I wish to no longer engage in this vitriol – because I am not going to become one of these writers who have some stupid historical rival with anybody!
For me, I wish that anyone who engages with this person to remain silent about any more things she has to say about me. I don’t wish to know.
Thank you for reading!
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