I want to bring this blog backwards a couple of years, back to where I used to write; no, not the broken promises every few days of working on this project or that. Back to where I would write snippets and nonsense and short or flash fiction again.
I have consistently turned this blog in recent months into a poetry blog and completely foregone its original state of being a fantasy fiction feed; my old blog name was once FantasyFed.com, but that’s gone now for TardyCreative.com because I thought the title reflected more of what I was than the previous title.
Poetry will still be a daily thing.
It is true in the past four years I have become very tardy creatively, because there is a lot going on in my life that has been gobbling up my brain space and I haven’t had time to breathe.
Things are still ongoing, in fact worsening, but I am learning to cope and I am trying to learn to put more onto myself, than less as a coping strategy.
I have allowed another person’s tardiness to increase my own and that’s never OK.
I’m not going to make promises of finishing novels because recently, although the will is still there – I personally can’t put more stress on myself by enforcing deadlines. Especially as I am trying to keep to a poetry deal I have been offered and need to concentrate on producing three books of 100 poems a piece.
So more short fiction is coming back to the blog shortly!
I had wanted to write more about what I know about different folklores and mythologies around the world and their superstitions and what not – but I never got around to it and yet that was my intention when I was FantasyFed.com
Recently I’ve got into a state of nostalgia.
Remembering my teenage to early twenties when I was a Goth rock chick!
I have the ability to play with my style a little more these days as money is improving a little, not much, but enough to indulge in beauty products now and my eyes are turning towards the Gothic culture again, amongst other types… as we all know, I have a mixed bag of desires and styles.
I wake up one day and I am a completely different person to the day before, because I have an indecisive, impulsive and eccentrically creative heart.
For a few days this past week I’ve wanted to be gothic or rock chick style – but part of yesterday evening into part of today, I felt the desire to express myself in Tudor larping style – I don’t have anything like this to actually dress that way – but the desire is still there!
I don’t know what I will want to look like tomorrow.
But, I have been thinking about trying to teach myself to have some kind of patience to learn enough technology to make YouTube videos about my life and journey of expression.
Though I would like to do a gardening and self-sufficiency vlog – or perhaps a spiritual vlog talking about my spiritual experiences and doing pick a card tarot readings for the masses – or anything really… art was another thing…
However, I have considered a few other things for YouTube, but as ever, my indecisive self struggles to decide which I would prefer?
I do know that in my future, I will be many things as my career looks like it could be starting off in the very near future and unlike the past – I won’t be fighting against this anymore.
I no longer fear fame or infamy whichever comes first… Though I admit, I’ve never feared infamy anyway because I was always blamed for things I’ve never done or initiated, I am used to the branding iron; I was raised to be “the whipping girl”.
A heads up for those who think I am easily rattled.
So, writing novels and comics, being a poet, a lyricist, composer, artist, playwright, toy designer, voice actress and ventriloquist are all things I appear to have some kind of future in and therefore – I am going to be one busy woman in my future it seems.
At the moment I am pretty elusive, that’s very self-induced – but I have friends who don’t want me to hide anymore and they’re putting on the peer pressure so to speak, ha-ha!
Yes, the voices – I have a huge gift for that and yes, ventriloquism, I kept that quiet on here – though you can follow some of my videos on Instagram. There isn’t much on there but you will find a couple of videos where I use my skills openly.
I’m thinking about increasing content on Instagram in fact; like I am thinking about monetising this blog soon, not sure how that will work, but I am not going to charge my readers, so don’t worry!
This is me with Twinkle, a hand puppet I’ve had since I was 5yrs old and it helped me growing up with the intensive speech therapy I used to have, as when I was a child I had a speech impediment due to being profoundly deaf and a stammerer/lisper.
So that’s the update on what’s going on and my plans for expanding my work and the blog.
Thanks for reading!